Mid-life-crisis

This blog is not for my Young Friends, on the other hand, why not, its always good to know what lies ahead. And if you think you'r gonna skip any of this mid-life-crisis, let me tell you one thing for sure..YOU'R NOT. It may come in various forms, but it'll come. Some of you who are familiar and still remember their imagionary friends from their childhood, well, you see, there is a certain connection there. If you ever had them, then you'll surely recognize the feeling in your mid-life, when they either reappear or, for those who had never experienced that feeling, they will suddenly start having imagionary friends, feelings, situations, just simply put, they will need them badly...fantasy land...when we're young its easy to fight with ghosts, when we reach the mid-life-crisis, confronting or surrendering to those ghosts and wind mills is a story of its own. And believe me, its not what we like so much calling 'serendipity' now days, meaning - abductive reasoning - finding something unexpected and useful while searching for something else entirely. No, no, don't be fooled by that definition...it even kinda sucks, but strange things will start happening. Its not about age...its not about waking up one morning and realizing those little lines on your face where not there yesterday, its not about : 'Hey, I wanna be 25..30 , again'...its about sudden consciusness, its about finding closure and filling the gaps...we forgot on the way. Its not about :' OMG I can't go to a disco'...ofcours you can,... its not about: ' I hate this everyday routine'...change the routine....its not about: ' omg I'm having a nap in the afternoon, and I'm starting to wake up so early'...common.. its not about : ' all my holidays look alike, all my friends look alike, I even spend more time in the kitchen'....no, no, and no. Your favorite quote you use on a daily basis starts sounding like: ' Oh, everything's sooo much up in the air for me, rith now'.The biggest problem is, that you start being aware of your thoughts deep inside, there is 'another you'...that 'you' whom you lost somewhere on the line...that 'old you' starts buggin you and hopefully kicks you in the bu* ...wake up /if you'r ready for it/....or just die trying /if your just fooling yourself/  !!!!!!! After all, maybe your life doesn't suck at all...and after all, maybe you just deserve it. So, go hit the sack and stop bragging.......HAH, SEE....NOW THAT'S MID-LIFE-CRISIS! Thats you talking to yourself...or that imagionary who ever. Both women and men experience this type of crisis, they start revaluating their lives, they start analysing, and reviewing, now and then they touch base, but this game is much more complicated then baseball. Most seek changes, wether their lives have been good , fair or bad. Most get this sudden feeling of : 'omg, I've wasted so many years, I've been so occupied, I've always worried for others and always  gave everything and I don't recall getting anything back...at least not when I needed it most...NOW...cuz I'm in mid-life-crisis! I've been busy making my social status, building up my empire, I've got everything any men can think of....why do I feel so EMPTY then? What am I missing? Am I happy, is THIS MY LIFE? These are the questions you'll be asking yourself on a daily basis, when you'r not trying to go with the flow and hide in your fortress of a secure and cozy life.Don't wait for devine intervention..its all up to you. I've seen massive men and women live lives in quiet desperation, only in mid-life-crisis this desperation can't be quiet anymore. A lot of people have accounts they have not reconciled, things they are not ready to share. Every now  and then, they come back, I have this snapshots of how they've changed along the years, the ones that changed the most, finally bought that boat, Porsche, bike - forgetting about their sciatic problems, or moved to that island, those who haven't changed I suppose they take comfort in knowing what course their lives are on, they like to know they believe in what lies ahead, they will end up living as they always did, and eventualy just give in. Maybe, that's a succesful mid-life-crisis...and, maybe not. They are on a strange journey of redemption...and a very long one, indeed. " THE REST IS UP TO YOU...I SAY...THE REST IS UP TO YOU" /  quote from Shall We Dance    Memorable Quotes from Lost in Translation *Charlotte: You're probably just having a mid-life crisis. Did you buy a Porsche yet? *Bob: I was feeling tight in the shoulders and neck, so I called down and had a Shiatsu massage in my room... Charlotte: Mmh, that's nice! Bob: And the tightness has completely disappeared and been replaced by unbelievable pain.                                                                                                                                                                                     *Lydia Harris: [over the phone] Is this a bad time? Bob: [pauses] No, it's always a good time. Lydia Harris: The burgundy carpet is out of stock: it's going to take twelve weeks. Did you like any of the other colors? Bob: Whatever you like - I'm just completely lost. Lydia Harris: It's just carpet. Bob: That's not what I'm talking about. Lydia Harris: What are you talking about? Bob: I don't know. I just want to... get healthy. I would like to start taking better care of myself. I'd like to start eating healthier - I don't want all that pasta. I would like to start eating like Japanese food. Lydia Harris: [icily] Well, why don't you just stay there and you can have it every day? Bob: [biting his tongue] How are the kids doing? Lydia Harris: They're fine. They miss their father. [pause] Lydia Harris: Do I need to worry about you, Bob? Bob: Only if you want to. *Stills Photographer: Are you drinking, no? Bob: Am I drinking? As soon as I'm done. *Charlotte: So, what are you doing here? Bob: Uh, a couple of things. Taking a break from my wife, forgetting my son's birthday. And, uh, getting paid two million dollars to endorse a whiskey when I could be doing a play somewhere. Charlotte: Oh. Bob: But the good news is, the whiskey works. *Charlotte: 25 years. That's uh, well it's impressive. Bob: Well you figure, you sleep one-third of your life, that knocks out eight years of marriage right there. So you're, y'know, down to 16 in change. You know you're just a teenager, at marriage, you can drive it but there's still the occasional accident. p.s. don't worry to much about it, though, you can always go to a chat room , blog, or play some games on the internet...meet people and lead a 'double-life' ...that's a therapy too, you know the drill: asl....whattcha wearing...and that  kinda stuff..., but be sure to make a deadline...like: ok this is fine,  at the moment it is JUST WHAT I NEED,  as long as it doesn't  go out of controll and my coping  and untill I get back to my old senses and realize who I am and what I want , hah, sounds faililar ...eh?

***all Photoshop pics by Lila*** / I simply adore this photo